Maybe, you think life was better then and you miss the good times, or maybe you can't forget how you suffered and still feel the pain of your wounds.
Either way, this is not God's will for you.
God's will for you is to grow. To change. To always be becoming the person He called you to be from your mother's womb.
A Bud Cannot Bloom...
Yes, He did call you. He does have a unique purpose for your life that is going to distinctly please and honor Him.
However, you have to let go. You have to stop looking back. And, you will have to trust Him more. And, even more than that.
The future is unknown, and it may not look very good right now, but you cannot judge His will by your present circumstances. You cannot judge His will by how you feel. The heart is deceitful above all things: Do not accept it's council.
...unless it's willing to change.
It takes no faith to live in the past, but that is not where you'll find God's will.
