The Saxophone Player's Wife: No One's Listening, But I'll Keep Talking

Just an update kinda post. Nothing special happening here.

I have decided to take a break from Facebook. It was a spontaneous decision made for two important reasons: to keep myself from posting something that could be misconstrued, and to keep myself from believing that people are actually paying attention.

Christmas Day was very unexpected. Events occurred which have left me asking more questions about my life than I thought I still had to ask. I've also had to face some hard realities that make me very sad. And, disappointed. And, concerned.

It also cemented in my heart some convictions. And, brought some things into the light. Not all bad stuff. Some very hard stuff, but not all bad.

In other news, the new year is just around the corner, and I am a wee bit terrified about all that is happening. Some important meetings await us, and I am not ready. My responsibilities within the ministry are much heavier than I feel capable of carrying. Physically, I am challenged, too. I am starting to pray for the Lord to give us an elliptical. I need something that moves my joints. I need exercise that demands exertion. I think the elliptical would do that. Since the end of my gardening season, it's like my body is just freezing up. Anyway, blah-blah-blah. But, it is a little scary to feel like a hard wind will send me crashing into a million pieces. My body is too high maintenance.

AND ANOTHER THING

More than ever, I am recognizing the importance of women. Ladies, if you forsake the God-given influence you have in your family, you will be sorry for the rest of your lives. And, there may be dire circumstances for your choices. There is a wrong kind of submission, and too many women choose that path, because it is easier than standing against their husband's unrighteous leadership. I know that is a bold thing to say, but I feel very strongly that there is much truth in that statement. There is a way to stand righteously against our husbands, but we have to first believe this is even possible. And, then we have to have the courage to do it. The courage of Esther. Our children and our grandchildren are counting on us. We must heed the Holy Spirit at all cost.